2006-09-16T09:31:00.000-07:00

We are sometimes so caught up with our own lives that we become blind to the reality. We are sometimes so selfish with our own everday life concerns that we miss out on the imporatant things, and we forget that life could be worse. And that the only thing in life that does not have a solution is Death.

2006-09-13T07:44:00.000-07:00

Artificial? Yes artificial. For three years I have been holding on lying to myself and to him. Telling him I loved him, when all along a spark deep down inside told me it was not true. But that spark lied beneath a lot of dirt. A lot of dirt that neither both of us would dare to question. I became someone I was not, laying underneath his wing as he shut me up with the money he would bring. I was becoming materialistic, living to the expectations of my family traditions. Me? A 20 year old girl forcing herself to act as if or trying to fall in love with this generous man. Why? Because I feared to hurt him, I feared to disappoint him after all his investments. (Crazy right?!?)But then again how about my feelings? When all along he and I knew that it wasn't real. It seemed as if it was all-just a deal. Now I sit here and think of all the times I said I loved him and he believed me. All the times I violated myself to please him. No! There is now no more him. Now it is about me. Today, I have walked into the real world learning how to face the reality with a different mentality, a mentality of a real woman.

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